i am you secret admirer….

dear Mr. NH…

tak sangka kita akan bertemu lagi selepas 8 tahun berpisah. masa tengok awak di antara barisan fasi, saya terkejut. agaknya kalau mata nie tak ada kelopak, dah terkeluar biji mata saya tengok awak (huhu)…

penampilan awak sekarang, tak sama macam dulu. sekarang awak nampak lebih kemas. rambut pun dah tak hitam lagi macam dulu. sekarang rambut awak dah berwarna dengan stail rambut belah tepi. jauhnya beza penampilan awak dulu dan sekarang…

awak, kalau la saya ni muka tak malu…saya akan sapa awak. saya nak tanya awak dah kawin ke belum…kalau dah kawin dah berapa orang anak…dan yang paling penting, saya nak tau awak sedar tak kewujudan saya di kolej matrikulasi dan di universiti tempat kita sama-sama menuntut….

sayangnya, mulut saya berat nak menyapa apatah lagi bercakap dengan awak. saya pura-pura tak kenal awak (huhu….Tuhan ja yang tahu seksanya saya setiap kali awak dekat dengan saya)…curi2 saya tengok awak, walaupun kadang-kadang pandangan mata kita bertemu…saya pura-pura pandang ke arah lain.

kalaulah awak dapat baca perasaan saya…

 

I look down at the ground
I cannot meet your smile
I cannot look into your eyes
I cannot gaze upon your sweet vision..

My shiny hair falls delicately
Over my blushing face
And the secrets within me
Linger behind these hazel eyes..

My thoughts flash back and forth
Remaining here and there
Wanting to escape
Wanting to be told..

I hold my mouth shut
And let my eyes do the talking
I look at you bashfully
My eyes full of hope and love
Because behind these hazel eyes
Lay the secrets that wish to be revealed..

You look at me carefully
Not daring to believe
The secrets I am trying to expose..

Doubt fills your mind
Until you clearly see
That little smile
Placed carefully upon my sugary lips
And the sparkle of adoration
That floats behind these hazel eyes..

You gently pull
My face to yours
And place a gentle kiss
Upon my soft lips..

And as love drifts around